You know what I'm not a fan of?

The fact that I always seem to feel the need to be eating something lately. Like, always. It's not workin' well for me... You know how people say it's a sign of a growth spurt? It's totally a growth spurt. It's called more fat. I kind of don't approve. I kind of really don't approve. Mrmph. Ah, well. It tastes good, at least!

I'm rewatching the entire first season of Glee. For, like, the third time. You know what tastes really good? Sprite with cranberry. So goooooooood.

I don't really have much to say, so I'm reaching a point of making random crap up.

I BOUGHT THE LION KING. The DVD/Blue ray combo pack. I'm kind of super excited.

Also! I now have TWO incredibly awesome coloring books! One is Harry Potter. It's pretty awesome. The second one I got today. It's a Peanuts one! Like, the cartoon strip? I only bought it for Snoopy. 'Cause Snoopy is potentially the best thing in the world. I adore Snoopy.

Torchie broke her toe into three pieces. I'm not sure that I knew toes were big enough to break into three pieces.

Dude! Apparently normal people know this before me, but Amish kids get a period of Ramspringa! It's when they turn 16, and their parents are like "Okay, kids! Go experience the world! Go party! Wooooooo!" So these kids go drink, do drugs, have all the wild sex they want, drive, wear whatever they want. They don't even have to go back to the Amish culture. But in most cases, the kids are like "The world sucks. I'm not missing anything." And then they go back to being good little Amish people.

The ironic thing about my finding that out was the timing. I was literally thinking right before that how lucky the little Amish girls were for not ever having to worry about makeup.

...It makes sense in my head.

I need to laundry. I just really don't want to. I hate laundry. So much.

Olivia Newton John is on Glee at the moment!

I adore Kristin Chenoweth. Seriously, man.

Glee has the best guest stars.

Nao's asleep, and I'm texting her. She sleep-texts like no other. I hope I'm messing with her dreams.

Speaking of her dreams, she had one where I got eaten by a hippo. But apparently I looked sexy while doing it, so... I guess it's all good :P

I got the munchies again... dang it. I really don't like this constant eating thing.

... Nurti-grain bars? They're usually pretty filling... maybe if I eat one, I won't feel the need to eat anything else for a while? Probably not, but I'll try it... As soon as I feel like getting up and going to the pantry.

I need to go work on the Pre-Area music. And I need to cover like two days worth of sightreading. Mrmph.

So... Now what do I do...? I'm kind of running out of things to talk about.

I think that's about all for now.

I love you!

-Nutmeg

Have you ever?

Have you ever wanted to throw your hands in the air? Scream and let the world know you're done? You're through? You just can't take anymore?
Have you ever just wanted to run as fast you can? See who follows?
Have you ever felt like nothing you could do would make it worth it? That you are completely and utterly not enough? That no matter how hard you tried no one would care?
Have you ever considered it to be worthless? Life to be fake? A hell we live in?
Have you ever lost hope? Lost sight of your dreams? Watched them as they faded and drifted in the wind?
Have you ever fallen so far? So far the edge seems too high to reach? No way to climb out?

Have you ever stopped caring? Decided it didn't matter what others thought?
Have you ever ran? Ran for the pleasure? Ran to come back? To see the world in a new light?
Have you ever just stopped thinking? Made your mind up that you'd make it through?
Have you ever held your head up high and set your shoulders? Flipped the world the bird and carried on?
Have you ever skipped when you could have walked? Smiled when you could have yelled?
Have you ever chased your dreams and held on tight?

The life we live in is too short. Take it step by step. Live it up like tomorrow is the end. Stop the hate. Spread the love. Find the one. Breathe. Spin. Act. Sing. Dance (preferably in the rain). Perform. Read. Play. Skip. Run. L.I.V.E.

I've been in a really weird mood lately. I sprained my ankle on Monday. Nutters should be updating tonight. Three of my photos got put in the glass :3 (Hall of fame for photography at my school). Taking senior pics of one of my guard friends tomorrow. I miss Nutters. I miss my brother. I miss Nao. I miss Flynn. The world isn't fair. It never will be. It seems like I always get the short end of the stick. Always. I'll get over it. I'll breathe. As soon as my ankle is healed I can start running again. I can get rid of all these feelings. Until then. Wish me luck.

-Torchie